Gaining back

 Looks like I’m slowly gaining my inner strength and motivations to grow over my fears or probably fight back like the old self. It’s not the hope that is definitely driving me, but it’s myself, my soul. I can hear her finally talking, it was ok to break down, to lose it, to get lost, to make mistakes, to feel guilty, to hate and to love. After all, my life is my own. I have to make rules for myself. It’s not how far I have reached when compared to others, but it’s how far I have reached myself from where I was and what I have gone through. It’s a fight for myself to myself, it’s been like that always. People came in at some point, and myself like many others fell for their promises. That’s when I lost my self support, and badly looked for pillars to support on. Little did I know these pillars were seasonal. Trust is a word to be used with caution and intense respect. When you break trust you are also breaking the respect that you received from the other individual. Gaining back myself hence also means not trusting anyone blindly folded in the name of love. Live at let live.